sometimes you wonder how much and who to trust.

i just felt that it's taken away from me- its not her fault really.
but why do i feel betrayal?

i felt that i'm being abandon and the feeling doesn't go- its not her fault.
but why the emptiness remains?

maybe i should maintain a distance from people.
that it's easier if there's no emotions involved in work.
that it's purely business.
maybe i care too much ... think too much..
that i should just continue to pretend that nothing exist.
I don't feel good. and i dun like these feelings in me.
it's not healthy.
but i can't hold it in any longer.