Fainting

I'm trying to write this in a positive way but I'm feeling rather pessimistic now.

Anyway, I fainted this morning while getting ready for work at the kitchen sink. According to my hubby, I fainted 3 times in total from the kitchen to the room and I had no idea. I only remembered hearing my mum calling for my hubby frantically when I first fainted and finally after struggling to wake up, my mum was wiping my cold sweat.

I was scared.

Anyhow, I am referred to see a neurologist to exclude some stuffs. Earliest appointment is at the end of April. I'm afraid to faint again. It's not a pleasant experience and it's embarrassing.

Received this in an email

HANDBOOK 2009  Health:  1.    Drink plenty of water.  2.    Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.  3.    Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.  4.    Live with the 3 E's -- Energy,  Enthusiasm, and Empathy.  5.    Make time for prayer.  6.    Play more games.  7.    Read more books than you did in 2008.  8.    Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.  9.    Sleep for 7 hours.  10.  Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk,   smile.  Personality:  11.  Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.  12.  Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy the positive present moment.  13.  Don't over do. Keep your limits.  14.  Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.  15.  Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.  16.  Dream more while you are awake.  17.  Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.  18.  Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with   his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.  19.  Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.  20..  Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.  21.  No one is in charge of your happiness except you.  22.  Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.   Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.  23.  Smile and laugh more.  24.  You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.  Society:  25.  Call your family often.  26.  Each day give something good to others.  27..  Forgive everyone for everything.  28.  Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the   age of 6.  29.  Try to make at least three people smile each day.  30.  What other people think of you is none of your business.  31.  Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your          family and friends will. Stay in touch.  Life:  32.  Do the right thing!  33.  Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.  34.  GOD heals everything.  35.  However good or bad a situation is, it will change.  36.  No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.  37.  The best is yet to come.  38.  When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.  39.  Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.  Last but not the least:  40.  Please Forward this to everyone you care about .

I want to be happy, to live my life with my dearie and not worry about what I cannot control. The most important thing is to do the right thing so that I won't look back in regrets. To be true to myself for only the one that truly cares will stay with me in times of health and sickness, to laugh with me and to dry up my tears. Flitting clouds are meaningless, paper airplanes will cease to fly.

Mummy & Me

That's frog leg claypot. Tender but salty, they cooked it with too much "chai po".

so sick and tired

I'm miserable, My head hurts from coughing, my nose and throat are in pain, I'm so tired.

On new course of antibiotics, starting another 4-5 days. I'm miserable and tired. Feel so sick and miserable. 

I hope I can recover soon.

Update: 15 Mar 09

It has been a week since I last fell sick. I'm not very much better. The nose has stopped dripping but the fatigue and feverish feeling is still here. I keep feeling cold then breaking out into sweats at night and often get cold and feverish. My body aches and I'm so tired, just tired.

Finishing my course of antibiotics but I till have the "stuffy" sound. =(

Celebrated mummy's birthday last Fri at GWC- Imperial Restaurant. The food was so good even though I had to order only steamed and non deep fried stuffs. Can't wait to eat there again.

haven't been well

was feeling sick on and off and finally it came crashing. Now home, huddled under a blanket and using tissue papers like there's no tomorrow.

My body aches, I hurt everywhere and I'm generally quite miserable.

Been a little upset lately because I spoke up against something I thought didn't sound right and did not do. The person's attitude towards me changed and wasn't as friendly towards me as when I first joined. I try not to be sensitive and get affected but I think it's pretty obvious. Anyway, I wasn't convinced by her explanation over the issues but I didn't want to talk anymore. Just act stupid and let the days pass me by. 

I just don't feel connected to anyone or to the tasks there.

I need a purpose.